Week 77 showing up
“ The function of man is to live , therefore I will not waste my days trying to prolong them, I will use my time.
-Jack london.
I think the hardest part of building a company is showing up every single day. The luxury of working for someone else is the structure, the impetus to begin. If it is nothing else but I will get fired and lose my income , there is reason to continue. There is an external variable to push you to win. The hardest voice to listen to is yourself . In life, we give credence to every one else around us except our own opinion and desires. At its core, the fundamental act of writing, whether it be on a computer or the old school use of pen and paper is extremely simple. What makes writing, going to the gym or any act that we deem desirable difficult is : one the perception we believe others have of you and your actions and two the desire for instant gratification. It is easy and at times more gratifying to think about what may think of my ideas , my 50 unit franchise and IP company , the amazing man and father that I “ will soon become” but it is amazingly hard to just follow the daily steps to become that . In this day of social media , everyone is financially incentivized to create a picture of a life an outcome an emotional state that we think is going to come over night . I haven’t written in over 12 weeks because of what Imagine a journal entry to look like and what people may or may not say when they read this . I’m also haunted by the thought that I will write something and instantly , after two post, my words and curiosities will become the most sought after words of wisdom. All of this is bullshit and completely untrue. The real life ( building , winning , losing , loving hating etc. ) happens right now. It happens when you wake up discouraged , out of. money nervous about becoming a dad of another beautiful child , and right in that moment , you go to the gym , write the blog entry make the calls or just complete the work you put on your calendar. This entry today was simply an exercise for me . A reminder that nothing accomplished great over time is sexy and is seen any one. It happens today , and tomorrow and the next day and the day after that when you feel out of wits. When you make a decision to show up and to do the mundane ,you are then living . So today , despite all of my feelings and lack of motivation, I am going to show up and do this . Eat glass , smile and continue , because the reality is the journey is all that matters and thats why "i’m writing . Not to sound smart , to brag or to feel important , I am writing so that I become a man who says he is going to write every monday and keeps his word. The journey is the reason, not the destination.